Poor Capitalist
Twice I put everything I had in an attempt to go into business for myself and twice I failed. That is right, I am poor. My father in law asked me why as a poor person I wasn't going to support Obama to give me free stuff. And I told him how much I love Capitalism, as much as I liked playing football. I never played for a winning team, but I always respected the game and never cheated. What I didn't tell him was that I am saving my pennies to try it all over again.
As long as you keep trying the game isn't over and the journey itself can be a pretty satisfying reward.
Keep slugging.
After my greatest business failure and having to move back in with my parents at 37 years old, I worked hard, founded another business, and have been more successful at this one than all of my other attempts combined.
Keep at it.
-old maxim.
maybe you should start smaller...like a shoestring.
http://prodos.thinkertothinker.com
Used to promote Objectivist ideas in Melbourne, Australia a few years back. He's gone a bit quiet as he's got older.
I spoke to him on Skype a few times and he said something to me that really stuck in my mind. Despite being an avid defender of capitalism I was surprised to learn that he only worked part time. A lot of the times he worked for himself if he could, and he worked on things that generally took his creative interest. When he was short of cash he made some money to cover his basic needs through busking. I replied that this was interesting, it's not how people normally see an ardent capitalist.
He replied that he didn't see it that way. For him capitalism wasn't necessarily just about making money (although it was about producing value, of course). It was about freedom and creativity, and living every hour to the fullest.
When he put it like that it made perfect sense to me, and it's stuck with me ever since.